A word of introduction

Hello all -
Welcome to my new endevor to write. I have loved writing through various times and seasons of my life, but I've never had an outlet, other than my journal, through which to share my thoughts and things that I have been learning. As for now, I don't have anything profound to say, but I will tell you a story that has been reumenating in my head and which could be almost allegorical.

Recently a camp near me was temporarily shut down due to a bad water source. At first, when I found out, I was a bit upset by the fact that no more kids would be sleeping over, no more weekend groups would be enjoying their stay there. Well, not for a few weeks anyway. But then, as I was talking to my dad on the phone, I had a brain wave, a flash of insight, if you could call it that. In my life, God has "shut down the camp" of my life so that He could have time to "clean out" my dirty water source. The last few weeks have been a struggle. Don't get me wrong, they have been filled with much growth, but my attitude has been bad. I've been worrying a lot and focusing on the negative aspects of life rather than being thankful for the things I have. The fact that a camp could be shut down just because of bad water caught me attention. Here I've been, allowing my "water source" to go bad right under my nose. Unhealthy thoughts and feelings invade my mind, and I often chose to let them stay there, growing like some disease, dirtying my water source. I feel like God is trying to get my attention! "My darling daughter, you're wandering again. You've forgotten that I am your Father and I will provide for ALL of your needs. Yes, your physical needs, but also your emotional and spiritual needs. Now you need to trust me instead of blaming me. I want to clean your water source." And I know He will. A lot of times I doubt that, but I shouldn't. God is faithful. That is a fact!:-) It may be painful, it may be hard, but God will continue to change me and grow me. When I'm down, He is there. When I'm up, He is there. Whether I know it or not, whether I'm distracted or not, my Savior, my Prince of Peace, my Father, is there for me, ready to take me as I am and transform me.:-)

"This time I finally see the reason why
I can't do this alone
It took some time and concentration
To believe it, this I know
I need to build my faith sometimes
But I am so comfortable in line
I'm up there's no more time,
To try to mess with this design
It took some time and concentration
To believe it, this I know
I need to build my faith sometimes
But I am so comfortable in line
I'm up there's no more time,
To try to mess with this design
Two nights compete everyone's asleep
and I don't want to say these words to you
I'll be your hand take me as I am
I just wanna be with you

Take me as I am cause I'm going
I was too scared to start now
I'm too scared to let go
Take me as I am, cause I'm growing
but its so hard to tell when I'm not used to this soul"

(Take me as I am, FM Static)