Fear

Sometimes it seems like, though the sun is shining outside, the light just can't seem to penetrate my soul. It is then that I get frightened. Though God himself declares to us that "Perfect love casts out fear," (1 John 4:18) I find myself absolutely lost in it sometimes. Confused, unsure, frightened. In absolute uncertainty. Sometimes, when I come to a place like this, all I can do is cast a prayer to heaven and hope that God, himself, will intervene somehow. And sometimes I just get so lost that God just has to find me whether I am asking Him to or not.

I called this picture "Light Piercing the Darkness." Sometimes the only hope I have is knowing that light does shine through eventually. Sometimes I wonder if it's wrong to have nothing but hope left, and when even that wanes, then what? Maybe, just maybe, all we have is hope sometimes. Paul said, "We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. [a.k.a., hope that is realized, being totally and completely happy for example?] Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently." (Romans 8:22-25 NIV) Well, I try to wait patiently anyway....:-)

Sometimes all you can do is hang on. And God will hang on to you too. "My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one can snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all; no one can snatch them out of my Father's hand. I and the Father are one." (John 10:27-30 NIV)